I know I promised faithfully to post more often and I have not. Sorry!!!! I’ve been busy playing Farm Town and Farmville on FaceBook. I never thought I’d get hooked on the silly games over there, but I am becoming addicted. After blocking all requests for trees and animals, refusing to throw food or poke back for several months, I relented and have become as bad as the rest of them. I don’t, however, do much chatting. My daughter chats a lot on FaceBook. I farm and get Bejeweled.
I am making progress with the mourning. I cry more often and I don’t care. Tears are very healing. My daughter and I sometimes cry together and that’s twice a therapeutic! I am even beginning to let go of some of the anger I’ve directed at my former sil. (We refer to him as the “ignoranus.”) I’m still not getting out and seeing actual people very much, but that is more a function of my physical health than my mental health. I have learned that some of my anger and my mourning has to do with the loss of my youth and my good health - in other words I regret the loss of the ability to do what I want when I want and as much as I want. Without realizing it I have defined myself by my ability to cook and clean, to sew and create beautiful things, to raise a productive garden and care for the harvest. Physically I am no longer able to do many of those things and I am mourning that loss as well as the loss of my husband and the end of my daughter’s marriage. But the good news is that I am dealing with all those things and it’s getting easier.
Among my other maladies I have developed plantar fasciitis. As a result I have been unable to take walks as I usually do in warm weather months. No walking = no picture taking. I am waiting for my orthotics to come in at the doctor’s office. I am getting a custom pair made from casts of my feet. Once I have them in my shoes I should be more mobile again. So I’m not completely without hope. lol
While I have been thus confined and constrained I have been doing a lot of reading - some better than others. One thing I have been reading is a series of mysteries referred to as the Remodeling Is Murder Series by Sarah Graves. These are light and light-hearted and a lot of fun to read. Another book that I have enjoyed recently is Artemis Fowl: The Time Paradox by Eoin Colfer. It is apparently also part of a series. Artemis Fowl is a remarkable young boy with magical friends and a very high IQ. Like Harry Potter this series is about a young boy who does amazing things. That’s pretty much where the resemblance ends. But I enjoyed Artemis every bit as much as I enjoyed Harry.
More soon. 
